[ Ahh. He thinks about Casey's turtle form, his slider markings. Files it away under associations that, if he's honest, aren't all that surprising. You don't just tack a sensei onto anyone. Hindsight's 24/7 or whatever it is.
(Leo would be a good one. He thinks. One day. If Leo wants that kinda thing. Probably was one, past-tense, in the other future? Raph doesn't get paid enough to fully understand all this timeline stuff, and he doesn't like thinking about most of it.) ]
Wish you didn't get it. Kinda glad you get it. I dunno. [ One of those weird things a person doesn't get unless they have to do it themselves. He doesn't really want his brothers to hit that point. Hopes they didn't, in that weird ADI place.
They shouldn't have to. If he already knows he can make that call for them-- he'll do it again if he has to. But he can't say that stuff out loud, he can't... think too hard about the fact that he's thought about it. Had to follow through on it. That if it's between his brothers and his dad, he knows where he'd land. If he thinks about that too hard, he gets mad that he had to think about it at all, and he gets mad that Pop and Draxum left them to it when he had no idea what he was supposed to do.
Except it's not fair to get mad because he gets it, and it's not fair to get mad when he's the guy who shipped Leo off in his escape pod while he stayed behind. It's not fair to get mad at Leo for making that call, for asking Casey to make that call.
It's not fair to get mad just because he's scared of the inevitable next time something like that happens, it's not fair to get mad just because he's tired of learning to ride a bike by slamming into walls instead of getting training wheels.
It doesn't feel fair that it doesn't feel fair.
Raph crumples his detention slip up just for something to do with his hands. ]
I'm sorry, too. [ Principal off-screen somewhere like "jeez kids can you lighten up a little," and the answer is no. This is now the guilt library. He's sorry. He regrets it. That's easy. ] But whatever it's worth, I don't... I don't think it actually makes us the worst people in the world.
[ Just, you know. Makes us feel like we are for the rest of our lives, a little bit.
If they were totally fine with it, then maybe there'd be some bad-person ground to stand on. In his opinion. ]
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(Leo would be a good one. He thinks. One day. If Leo wants that kinda thing. Probably was one, past-tense, in the other future? Raph doesn't get paid enough to fully understand all this timeline stuff, and he doesn't like thinking about most of it.) ]
Wish you didn't get it. Kinda glad you get it. I dunno. [ One of those weird things a person doesn't get unless they have to do it themselves. He doesn't really want his brothers to hit that point. Hopes they didn't, in that weird ADI place.
They shouldn't have to. If he already knows he can make that call for them-- he'll do it again if he has to. But he can't say that stuff out loud, he can't... think too hard about the fact that he's thought about it. Had to follow through on it. That if it's between his brothers and his dad, he knows where he'd land. If he thinks about that too hard, he gets mad that he had to think about it at all, and he gets mad that Pop and Draxum left them to it when he had no idea what he was supposed to do.
Except it's not fair to get mad because he gets it, and it's not fair to get mad when he's the guy who shipped Leo off in his escape pod while he stayed behind. It's not fair to get mad at Leo for making that call, for asking Casey to make that call.
It's not fair to get mad just because he's scared of the inevitable next time something like that happens, it's not fair to get mad just because he's tired of learning to ride a bike by slamming into walls instead of getting training wheels.
It doesn't feel fair that it doesn't feel fair.
Raph crumples his detention slip up just for something to do with his hands. ]
I'm sorry, too. [ Principal off-screen somewhere like "jeez kids can you lighten up a little," and the answer is no. This is now the guilt library. He's sorry. He regrets it. That's easy. ] But whatever it's worth, I don't... I don't think it actually makes us the worst people in the world.
[ Just, you know. Makes us feel like we are for the rest of our lives, a little bit.
If they were totally fine with it, then maybe there'd be some bad-person ground to stand on. In his opinion. ]