yeah. exactly that. He didn't really wanna hear that but it's hard not to think about it. i've spent most of my life obsessing over how he sees me. I don't think he'd like, just fuck off with someone, but I also never really thought we'd get this far either.
I'm just being realistic. sex is one thing but ...that doesn't mean some locked-in promise. that dumb nerd doesn't even realize how many people had crushes on him back home. he's fucking oblivious to how much people are attracted to him and it ain't like he's out here with any stiff competition for me or whatever.
It all sounds like insecure bullshit when I put it out like this
yeah...I understand. you're not from a futuristic society, are you. probably felt like your desires could wait. the whole coming out thing is stupid anyway. who the hell even needs to know. and you're here now, so. most people here don't seem to give a shit and if they do, either me or that amrita chick will blow them the fuck outta their shoes
yeah, because knowing if you let yourself be happy, it's also at risk of letting yourself be miserable too if shit falls apart.
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I'm just being realistic. sex is one thing but ...that doesn't mean some locked-in promise. that dumb nerd doesn't even realize how many people had crushes on him back home. he's fucking oblivious to how much people are attracted to him and it ain't like he's out here with any stiff competition for me or whatever.
It all sounds like insecure bullshit when I put it out like this
yeah...I understand. you're not from a futuristic society, are you. probably felt like your desires could wait. the whole coming out thing is stupid anyway. who the hell even needs to know. and you're here now, so. most people here don't seem to give a shit and if they do, either me or that amrita chick will blow them the fuck outta their shoes
yeah, because knowing if you let yourself be happy, it's also at risk of letting yourself be miserable too if shit falls apart.